2/10/19

My brithday has passed and yesterday I had my party!! All my friends and boyfriend came over and we had a lot fo fun playing smash

one of my friends made me a cool hoodie with embroidered designs on it!!

my trip to Japan in spring break is coming up!! I can't wait!!

also i'm going to be updating my site again, I'll be fixing the missing like website buttons on my art and home page and i mgiht add more characters.???


1/3/19

Happy New Years!!! Hopefully 2019 will be good! My christmas was great! :)) I got a rhodia notebook and new ink from my boyfriend. I also got $100 so I bought myself the Opus 88 Koloro Demonstrator fountain pen which arrived today. Its super nice and holds a lot of ink while remaining light enough to draw or write with which is super nice. I got a medium nib so it's nice and smooth.

What I'm not looking forward to is going back to school though. ://


12/23/18

Been a while. I know anyways I ended up finishing my science fair final grade. I just admitted to ym teacher how I made up the data and how we genuinely wanted to finish the project.

Things have winded down for the Christmas season (in 2 days!!) and a few days a go a tragic accident happened to my mom

For some reason instead of just putting hot water in a water bottle for her cramps, she used boiling water.

I was sitting on the couch with her and my dad and it brst all over her leg and we had to rush her to the nearby hospital.

as I sat back there my brain was shut off. I honestly wasn't thinking about anything. I was just breathing and crying a lot.

She got 3rd degree burns which is awful. Luckily nothing other than just her leg was effected so.. yeah.

Eventful night. As I was sitting alone in the lobby waiting for for my mom as I was sort of crying I was people watching in the area.

There was a 22 year old woman in a wheelchair with no legs at all and she was chatting to the older 55 year old woman next to me.

The younger woman was talking about how expensive her rent was being 580 a month, which is actually quite cheap and how she makes do.

What also surprised me is how she has a son, which is crazy. Not only due to her situation with no legs, but also how.. young she was..?

It's crazy how people live. As I sat there waiting for hours in the lobby I finally finished the last 25 pages of a book I had to read for AP World History last year called, The Moors Account.

I actually highly reccomend it and its a crazy story of a Morrocan guy who sold himself to make money for his family and.. it's a crazy long story.

The hospital actually gave me time to just sort of like, not think. I haven't just not thought about anything in a really long time.

What a weird Christmas time huh.

also!!! as I'm typign this I'm watching the new season of People Just Do Nothing :)) It was finally added to Netflix


12/11/18

haven't written in a while again. today i felt like crying in art class cause i really don't like this perticular piece I was making

like I was told my piece looked like the ramblings of a crazy person so hahahhahahha :|

LA class went a lot better. My teacher likes my story assignment we've been assigned. She's really chill and nice and thats gonna be our final exam grade which is!!! really nice!!

We have to write about a modern day witchhunt of some sorts so I'm writing about ym DC interns :)))


11/30/18

Haven't writen anything here in a while. My fam is finally back form Australia so now I can wake up an hour later and get to school which is so much better lol

the pieces ive made for my AP art concentration are going well and people seem to like them a lot incluiding my teachers which is good. Soon my schools christmas preformance is coming up which is.. nervewracking in a way?

Since im in visual arts, I have to paint a massive canvas mural on stage in sync with live orchestral music in front of us. Its actually really cool and most people can't get their minds around how people can paint that fast in a collaborative effort.

last year I just held a board behind the canvas so people could paint aginst it. not sure yet if i'll be painting this year ;U

my bf came over and we watched Chappie :)) which is a really good movie btw!!! it's very cute and weird and is extremely underated!!

also been tihnking about how I need to write more little weird stories with my ocs in my notebooks. I kind of have this one weird continuous one in a book i got in Australia in July and I've just been adding on and on to it. Maybe I'm an amazing writer and no one knows it yet lol

I also need to keep learning Hindi. I've gotten good enoguh where I can look at a random hindi word and prounounce it but not extactly know what it means which is!! really cool!!


11/26/18

First day of school since the break. My science teacher is making us do science fair which is so shitty. Our school has never had teachers who make us do it, especially since we're an art school and everyone has a job or is rehearsing for their magnets etc. So that sucks.

P tired since I had to wake up early again but soon i wont have to anymore.

im coming to realize that school sucks lol. the concept of it at least. my school is actually pretty cool


11/24/18

Thanksgiving went over well. Went over to my grandmas house and ate mac n cheese and some chicken.she also made my brother a sweet potato pie. which was nice of her :))

been playing fortnite since then like the child i am lol.

my new sketchbook is starting off really well too. I'm finally sitting myself downa nd doing proper value and figure studies.

also!! im not gonna be posting art to tumblr anymore cause it suks pp. Theres also a mass migration of artists leaving tumblr as well so i'll be post on my dA from now on.

you can find the link to it under my art section!


11/21/18

6:34 PM

Ended up seeing Wreck it Ralph 2 today since we had no Wifi. For once the sequel was actually good lmao. It was a very well paced movie. it's intro maybe being a tad bit too slow.

11:51PM

woke up this morning with no wifi at all. I was watching a video of Ninja getting way too angry over people who talk about stream sniping lmao. and how basically its ok to fake report people.p


11/20/18

Played a bunch of Overwatchw with my brother and took a nice bath. Helped me feel less dazed and out of it. Also had the weird urge to draw a lot of furries with Jay today lmao.

i smoked weed for the first time yesterday and got high. holy shit was I fucked. nothing felt real

Also I made my new website button! It's on my homepage. It's also now a png instead of that crappy jpg one. So feel free to link back to my website broooos


11/18/18

finally updated the site. all character pages are finally done (including the flea market ones!) and I fixed the animated gradient and added a scrolling text box! the blog page is now its own sort of seperate page which you can just click on your browsers back button to get back to my website. i added an interesting links webpage with some helpful or interesting stuff. especially if you're an artist.

I fixed the eshrine for the skeleton kingdom as well so check it out bruvs

I got a new sketchbook from my boyfriend today! it looks super nice and I can't wait to draw in it!! Tomorrow I ll be eatting dinner with him so that should be nice. I'm sort of trying to enjoy this break as long as I can. Especially with the looming end of year chrtistmas celebration my school has and deadlines for AP art


11/16/18

Today was my last day of school before my school break starts. I feel super relaxed and today was a good school day in general. I finally got a new Environmental Science teacher and she’s.. Very odd. If anything quite rude. She doesn’t let us have any food or drinks in class which is usual for a science class (unusual for environmental science) but she doesn’t even let us drink bottled water which is super odd. She was being mean in general but would go back to being her normal nice self instantly. Also all the work we did for the 5 weeks of substitutes we’ve had wont be counted as work in the class which is super fucking shitty. 5 weeks of work for nothing. The only thing that will be graded is a packet she assigned us for tuesday and wednesday which will be a preformance grade. I hate it.

My school had a teaser which is basically when our periods get shortened and at the end of the day we have a 1 hour long program to showcase a dance recital or a play performance to showcase what will to be come that night or on the weekend which is sweet. So I had a super relaxed today.

I was thinking after school waiting for my ride. About alternate realities due to choices we make. Or relationships and people we meet just cause we just so happened to meet at a time a a place. Winter is coming and maybe that’s why i was feeling nostalgic. Maybe I just care a lot. Now I’m home and just relaxing and I feel a bit tired.

I’m trying to work on my writing skills. It’s very hard for me to get my thoughts out into text and not just like art or animations/movies. Even comics are hard for me to write since I can’t animate the timing or mood right. I think it’s because i have an issue of things being static? I guess? But I like a good book or a well timed atnospheric comic. Practice makes progress. It just takes time :/


11/15/18

Watched a lot of People Just Do Nothing today. Funny BBC show that ig uess started off on YouTube as a short series. Looked up if it was going to get a 5th season and it turns out it started airing like 3 days ago on BBC. Only bad thing is that BBC’s website doesn’t allow streaming outside the UK :/ . So that sucks. The end of season 3 was so sad ;//

Forgot to mention that after digging through my raw genetic data since I’ve done 23andme, I believe I have nonclassical CAH. Which I guess is being intersex..? I have yet to be able to see a doctor about it but theres lots of genetic markers pointing towards this, and i was talking to my grandma about it and she agreed on how it runs in the family . Which has given me a lot of comfort. I always had weird excessive hair on my face amoung other symptoms and it makes me happy that his isn’t super rare. Always thought I had some sort of crazy weird thing going on, or that it was stress. Shoutout fr to 23andme for the amazing insights I’ve uncovered through them.

Last night a winter remix came through my city. Heavy amounts of ice rain has given everything a thicklayer of ice. Super dangerous and for some reason my school district didn’t cancel ro delay school. Since a girl is giving me rides and parents are gone I decided to not go with her this morn. Too dangerous, even I was concerned for her. So my day has felt really long. 6:20 AM to now as I write. I just finished watching Christine. Weird movie. I had been wanting to watch it for a while now and i dont knwo hwo to feel about it. The best way I can describe it is that I liked watching it and seeing Christine. I like how the actress had that certain look to her and I liked the general vibe of it all. In a way I could relate a lot to her and her weird antics. I also like the very very selective use of music in the movie. Espcially during that scene at the end. The music really was jarring yet hypnotic. Funny how years and decades work. As a kid I used to jus tlike the vibe of the 70s. Idk why but i just have. It reminds me of a book I bought a few years back called El Deafo. A graphic novel based off the authors life as a kid in the 70s and comign to terms that she turned deaf. It’s oddly comforting. Not sure why. Defintly reccomend it. Simple but cute story Also been thinking about how 2018 actually feels like a year year. Sort of like how 2016 or 2012 felt like years. I haven’t had this feeling for a while now. It feels refreshing. It makes sense. Like im a human again. I mentally feel a lot better this school year so far. No major episodes of flashings lights. Only thing that I am finally coming to terms with is that I’ve hallucinated a teacher aid arguing over my own thoughts and the sound of someone brushing past me. I can’t remember what the voice was saying, just completly jarring. The sound of the coat was in class and the sound oddly got louder and louder and its like the sound went into my forehead. Might sound weird but it felt like a shooting star So heres to 2018. Thanks 2018 for being a rough complicated mess of emotions and finding out who i am and who I’m not.


11/11/18

updated some of my characters with art I finally drew of them! So check out the Colorado crews page and dc interns page. the last character set i need to draw refs for now is my flea market characters. im trying to get the main content of my website fixed and then ill fix the issues with the background gradient, so for now all im gonna have is static gradients (for not too long hopefully ;;) I'm also thinking about making personal pages for myself to remember specific things for my own use or info for anyone else like 3Ds hacking or other weirdly specific info that seems to have a weird lack of resources! Also does anyone watch Peter Draws btw? his podcasts and other videos are really relaxing!!


11/9/18

tried rewatching a weird anime movie I grew up with called Appleseed. it's awful. the animation is dated and so dreadfully boring. I was starting to fall asleep during it which is rare for me. I feel quite tired today. I usually am always rushing out the door when my ride gets here for school. I get to school an hour early because of my situation right now and never have time to pack my lunch. I'll probably start packing it the night before. A few days ago I found out about this guy named Takehiko Inoue. He made a manga called vagabond and I'm oddly interested in it. usually I don't really look at manga or anime in general but it looks appealing. I still have a disposable camera with about 8 more shots left on it. I got it a while ago so idk when im ever going to finish it. i updated this blog page. (no more missing files errors? hopefully? i cant figure out how to make teh gradient fill the whole page...) I changed the gradient to match the vibe of the whole blog page. enjoy? also does anyone miss those old weird early 2000s styled documentaries that were really quiet and pure? and super like idk how to phrase it but like honest? maybe its just me. I like that vibe a lot.


11/7/18

jbeen watching a lot of videos about schizophrenia as I've always been interested in it. reminds me of the time I was so stressed back in april of this year that I ened up having major ocular migranes that would cver my vision and sometimes last about 45 minutes straight . no pain what so ever which is quite normal in many cases. my mother has migranes big time and is triggered by tihngs like flashing lights or even blue cheese and probably stress. during the school year I couldn't do it anymore and would have constant foggy mind. at times now I sometimes still do and thankfully the flashes of color have sort of gone away. every now and then i'll get small pinpricks of light.


11/6/18

completely remade the website. enjoy the nice gradients and the simpler character section also check out the weird video i posted in the videos section of interesting links and ideas. latley i've been looking into hinduism. i know its weird but I find it interesting. specifically Matangi and Shaktism as a whole. there's so many hindu gods and goddesses that its crazy that people for thousands of years have looked up to them. Matangi is interesting to me because shes basically an outcast, yet shes the most wisest of them all. she's a deep green color and a goddess associated with knowledge, speech, the arts, and music. yet she's associated with being impure and dirty. devotees are supposed to offer leftover food, or meditate on her before they are clean. interesting stuff. here's a link on it


11/3/18

making the update go live today. finally added the mentions links & ideas page. feel free to check it out! you can find the skeleton kingdom there under the e- shrine section


10/21/18

been a while since i've updated. my parents are now back in australia starting today. they'll be gone for a while so i'm home alone with my brother. clara from down the street will be picking me up to go to school. thinking about redoing my whole website again lol. i'm also currently in the process of adding my flea market characters. so sorry if things are under construction. updated the interests pages and soon ill be back to work on the skeleton kingdom. i'm for sure gonna turn that page into a 'links' page so i can put random shit there. chao.


8/30/18

i updated the site after a while. i finally finished the character pages and all i need to do is change the current placeholder images for them. sorry if some of them look a bit wonky!


6/27/2018

it's been a while since i've updated this news section. im leaving for australia on this saturday!! pretty hyped to be honest with that said i can't really work on my website at all next month and i will generally be inactive. i've revamped my site a bit and finally fixed my menu system lol. slowly i'm adding more and more of my characters and now there's an actual grouping system which helps a lot! i added my d.c. interns so far and i still need to add the rest of them. i have a lot ;//


9/15/2017

bailey found my watch today at school! i lost it about a week and a half ago and i pretty much had given up till now... also yesterday i nearly got into a t-bone car wreck which was weird.. i could of died or gotten seriously hurt..


9/8/2017

looks like ill be going to australia in the summer next year for about a month and i'll be going to spain and france that year in a school trip! pretty eventful i guess. my family was actually planning to go to australia this year for christmas, but.. well it suddenly got expensive.. i'm also thinking about starting a webcomic about weird stuff that happens at my school??